you should all be so proud of me.

Why? Well, just because, right? You don't need a reason.

No, you don't.

Oh, but I do have a reason.

I have gone through two whole weeks of classes, and have only been late twice! Isn't that wonderful!

I feel like I could keep this up all term long. I'm optimistic like that.

(But, um . . . don't be surprised in November if I come in here complaining that I lost half a letter grade for being tardy too many times to some class or another. I mean I am optimistic, but I can't completely change overnight. Baby steps, people.)

Oh, and also! Guess where I am typing this entry right here.

No, not on the slow library computer with the sadistically buzzing timer, but from my very own (crappy) computer on my lovely desk in my own lovely apartment.

Yes, that's right. I am no longer broke (though still poor) and I can actually afford internet service! Yay! This is another reason to be proud of me; I managed my money so well (meaning I scraped up every last penny I could find in my old purses and jeans pockets and ate little more than ramen and cereal for two weeks, lol, but that's neither here nor there) that I got connected weeks before I thought I'd be able to. And, I say AND! I installed it myself. I am now a whiz at electronic installation. (Well, whiz is putting a bit strongly I guess. Considering I spent a good 45 minutes going "Wait, what? Where does this cable go? What goes into the wall? What's this box for? Why are all these lights blinking? Huh? Who's talking?" LOL. At the time, I felt more like a fuddled old lady looking for her spectacles than a modern day do-it-yourself kinda girl. But I suspect this description may be sinking me in your estimation so that's enough of that there.)

I'm still ecstatic over the newness of it all. I hope all you wonderful people have something to be ecstatic about as well, or at least reasonably well pleased. If not, let me know, I can probably think of something for you.


(By the by, I just noticed that this entry is just about 80% parenthetical info. Wow. Should I have bothered with the parentheses at all? Oh! I'm still using them. lol. I think I'm addicted. I need an intervention. Somebody set it up.)


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A Verse For You Today:

"Behold, I am coming and will dwell in your midst," declares the Lord.

Be silent, all flesh, before the Lord, for He is drawn forth from His holy habitation.

~ Zechariah 2: 10, 13

fema man.

oooooooh. . . he is gonna get it!

You know when George Bush is on television actually admitting that the federal government messed up and was not doing its job, somebody is getting ready to pay for him losing all of that face. I don't care what my mama says, Fema Man is going down. He may not get fired and he may not be asked to resign; he may not even get shot (which is what I thought might happen to him last week). But rest assured he is going to be roundly punished for making George Bush say that something that went wrong was his fault.

It's too bad I can't find it in my heart to feel sorry for him. Maybe I will, when word spreads that in addition to his position as Fema Man, he's also responsible for scrubbing the White House toilets or something. Yeah, maybe then.

Maybe not though.

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A Verse (well, Some Verses) For You Today:

O Lord, You are my God. Early will I seek You. My soul thirsts for You; my flesh longs for you in a dry and thirsty land.

Because Your love is better than my life, my lips shall praise You.

Because You have been my help, therefore in the shadow of Your wings will I rejoice.

My soul follows hard after You, and Your right hand upholds me.

But those that seek my soul to destroy it, shall fall into the depths of the Earth. ~ Psalm 63: 1, 3, 7-9

a big, big, big old sigh.

That's me right now. I'm not carbon chains or amino acids or hair or skin or protein or anything. I'm just one great big sigh.

I can't explain it very well. I don't kow what's going on.

Well, no. That's a lie. I do know what's going on.

I'm experiencing dissatisfaction with myself, with no real way to get out of it. I just have to wait for it to pass.

Are you asking why I'm so dissatisfied? You're a good friend. (And, if you were saying to yourself that I have absolutely no reason to be so dissatisfied, then you're a wonderfully great friend.)

It's a strange thing that's never happened to me before, but these little pins of guilt have been pricking me these past couple of weeks since Katrina hit.

I know what you're thinking, and you're right. I didn't cause the hurricane. That's not where this crazy guilt is coming from. It's coming from my day-to-day activities in the wake of the storm. I get up and go to class and have to listen to people intellectualizing and theorizing about what's wrong with the world, and the country, when what's wrong with the world and the country is staring us all in the face, and what can I do about it?

All I have is prayer to give, and I know it's a mighty strong force. But it's a spiritual, a mental force, and for all the good I know it does in my soul and my mind, my young, strong body is constantly accusing me of being inactive.

I don't know how long this will last.

Don't be worried for me though, anyway. I'm not depressed or really downhearted or anything. Take my word for it, because I don't know any other way to prove it in writing. lol.

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A Verse For You Today:

The Lord sees not as man sees, for man looks on the outward appearance, but the Lord looks into the heart. ~ I Samuel 16:7b